The bad. One great, high calorie meal can kill weight loss for a week. After going to the gym four times this week I am three pounds heavier than I was Sunday, which sucks.
Now for the good.
This morning I was getting ready for work and the jeans that I put on were huge and for a minute I had just sort of felt that it was my lot to just spend the day wearing jeans up to my boobs and feeling like I was wearing waders all day. But then I thought I would poke around at the back of the closet where the clothes of years past loom and there I found a pair of jeans that I had not worn in years cause they didn't fit. Sure enough they fit and are even a bit loose on me and thanks to Old Navy being anal and labeling their tags I know that I bought them in the spring of 06 and probably have not worn them in at least 3 years.
And now for the ugly. Eczema. I don't know what to do about it. I'm using the special shampoo, Aveeno body lotion and moisturizer but I HAVE to go to the gym right now in order to see my goal of 50 pounds down by 10/5 and that requires that I sweat a lot. I need to look into other alternative and probably see a dermatologist too if this doesn't clear up soon. Bleck.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Day 77
There are good things to following through with a strenuous workout schedule, and there are bad. The good - I dropped 3 pounds over the weekend and now I'm less than 5 pounds to my first major goal. The bad. My legs are on fire, I'm exhausted and feel a little sick, and I have a bad case of eczema.
Today I am taking it easy and not even thinking about going to the gym today. I am supposed to do 3 miles on the elliptical tomorrow morning and I hope that I feel better than I do right now, cause right now all I want to do is curl up into a little ball and sleep for four hours.
I did discover the ratios this weekend for optimal weight loss. Water is 10%, eating healthy is 35% and exercise is 55% and with this formula and the success from weight loss I saw this weekend, this needs to become the daily goal.
So with that I'm going to bath myself in aveeno and hope for the eczema to go away quickly.
Today I am taking it easy and not even thinking about going to the gym today. I am supposed to do 3 miles on the elliptical tomorrow morning and I hope that I feel better than I do right now, cause right now all I want to do is curl up into a little ball and sleep for four hours.
I did discover the ratios this weekend for optimal weight loss. Water is 10%, eating healthy is 35% and exercise is 55% and with this formula and the success from weight loss I saw this weekend, this needs to become the daily goal.
So with that I'm going to bath myself in aveeno and hope for the eczema to go away quickly.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Day 74 and I Give Up
I give up on people needing to notice change for me to be happy with my weight loss. This week has been depressing as I have gone to the gym several times this week, maintained my goals for sticking to 1600 calories and for all of that work and willpower I lost a pound. One little pound. 3,800 calories less than last Friday. It truly sucks.
But the reality is that I have a long way to go. If I weighed 180 then losing 44 pounds would be a significant change to my body, but for me right now 44 pounds is not that noticeable to anyone other than myself. So I need to suck it up and realize that until my pants can literally fall off of me that no one will really notice any changes.
So my weekend goal is to work out. The best husband is excited about tomorrow morning when we do 5+ miles with the dogs and then hit the elliptical for an hour. This is something that I came up with in a moment of weakness when I got off the scale this morning. I am so close to my goal but I will not make 50 pound loss by October 5th at this rate so I really need to ramp up the exercise like crazy on the weekends. Sunday will be another long walk and probably another hour on the elliptical. If I can do it for two days in a row I am amazing and should be rewarded with a two pound weight loss by Monday morning.
But the reality is that I have a long way to go. If I weighed 180 then losing 44 pounds would be a significant change to my body, but for me right now 44 pounds is not that noticeable to anyone other than myself. So I need to suck it up and realize that until my pants can literally fall off of me that no one will really notice any changes.
So my weekend goal is to work out. The best husband is excited about tomorrow morning when we do 5+ miles with the dogs and then hit the elliptical for an hour. This is something that I came up with in a moment of weakness when I got off the scale this morning. I am so close to my goal but I will not make 50 pound loss by October 5th at this rate so I really need to ramp up the exercise like crazy on the weekends. Sunday will be another long walk and probably another hour on the elliptical. If I can do it for two days in a row I am amazing and should be rewarded with a two pound weight loss by Monday morning.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Day 73
I am now six pounds to my first goal of 50 pounds down. There are real signs of change. My stomach is smaller, pants are loose, I'm wearing clothing that I haven't attempted to wear in years and yet... no one has noticed and it's starting to get irritating.
I want someone, anyone to make a comment that it is noticeable. That the changes that I see are real and tangible. Is it taboo to now comment on positive physical changes to a friend/co-worker, or am I so amazingly obtuse on societies codes of conduct that I notice when my boss gets his haircut or when someone is wearing the same damn skirt four days in a row?
Since I'm noticing and whining about my weight loss (sorry to anyone reading this diatribe) I'm going to reward myself for my first big milestone. Clothing seems wrong since the goal is to be 3 sizes smaller by New Years. I am planning on having Indian in a couple of weeks since I have been missing chicken tikka masala like crazy and should be working on 10 pound increments by then, but is it healthy to reward weight loss with food? But then I am on a diet that will probably last the rest of my life (will need to maintain 1,700 calories daily to make sure I don't gain again), with little bouts of freedom sprinkled throughout.
I could go for shoes and purses since they are always fun and will not be affected by weight loss. At this point I have a couple weeks to think about it.
SIDENOTE - just in the hallway with a co-worker talking about jewelry making when another co-worker walks by and comments on all the weight the person who I'm talking with has lost. Oof...
I want someone, anyone to make a comment that it is noticeable. That the changes that I see are real and tangible. Is it taboo to now comment on positive physical changes to a friend/co-worker, or am I so amazingly obtuse on societies codes of conduct that I notice when my boss gets his haircut or when someone is wearing the same damn skirt four days in a row?
Since I'm noticing and whining about my weight loss (sorry to anyone reading this diatribe) I'm going to reward myself for my first big milestone. Clothing seems wrong since the goal is to be 3 sizes smaller by New Years. I am planning on having Indian in a couple of weeks since I have been missing chicken tikka masala like crazy and should be working on 10 pound increments by then, but is it healthy to reward weight loss with food? But then I am on a diet that will probably last the rest of my life (will need to maintain 1,700 calories daily to make sure I don't gain again), with little bouts of freedom sprinkled throughout.
I could go for shoes and purses since they are always fun and will not be affected by weight loss. At this point I have a couple weeks to think about it.
SIDENOTE - just in the hallway with a co-worker talking about jewelry making when another co-worker walks by and comments on all the weight the person who I'm talking with has lost. Oof...
Friday, September 9, 2011
Day 67
Diets are a bitch. And being on a diet and female really is a bitch. It seems that no matter what I do physically or how good I am at watching my caloric intake there are certain times during the month that my body is holding onto calories like a fat kid holds onto a candy bar.
I decided last night instead of fixating on the scale that seems to be stuck, to attempt to try on things that I haven't worn in awhile to get a sense that the scale may not be moving but my body is changing. At first it was great. Three winters ago I bought a Ralph Lauren coat in their classic brown/white pattern that was too small across the bust and arms to wear. Now, it's a little big on me. Then I thought I would try on pants that were a size too big to start weeing out anything that was way too big. Out of the 15 pairs I put on, only three were too big to wear ever again. Those three are in what will hopefully become a very large pile in the next couple of weeks as I get close to the first major goal of 50 pounds gone.
Tomorrow morning we're going on a 5 mile walk and on Sunday either the gym or another long walk cause I am so close and I know that if I push it I will force my body out of this rut and into a new series of goals.
I decided last night instead of fixating on the scale that seems to be stuck, to attempt to try on things that I haven't worn in awhile to get a sense that the scale may not be moving but my body is changing. At first it was great. Three winters ago I bought a Ralph Lauren coat in their classic brown/white pattern that was too small across the bust and arms to wear. Now, it's a little big on me. Then I thought I would try on pants that were a size too big to start weeing out anything that was way too big. Out of the 15 pairs I put on, only three were too big to wear ever again. Those three are in what will hopefully become a very large pile in the next couple of weeks as I get close to the first major goal of 50 pounds gone.
Tomorrow morning we're going on a 5 mile walk and on Sunday either the gym or another long walk cause I am so close and I know that if I push it I will force my body out of this rut and into a new series of goals.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Two Months and 40 Pounds Lighter
Who knew that the secret to losing weight was watching your calories, drinking lots of water and exercise? Someone should really inform the masses.
It sounds so simple and I am doing it, but it's the fact that right now I have will power that is getting me out of bed in the morning to go to the gym before 6:00am almost every day, that is standing on the scale and taking precautions to make sure that the numbers continue to slide down and to write down what I eat almost immediately after I finish a meal so I can accurately watch my calories so I don't go over 1,600. Right now my greatest fear is that once I feel that I am in control and don't have to watch what I eat or go to the gym that the will power might slip away and I could find that the past two months were a brief sojourn to a potential thinner life.
The ultimate key is will power. I must continue to monitor my progress and realize that the rapid weight loss that I have seen over the past two months will get harder the longer I am actively trying to lose weight and when I hit plateaus to not get discouraged, but realize that it is my body adjusting to the changes in weight, and instead of a child and growth spurts I should be grateful for my shrinkage spurts.
For my third month my goal is to hit the 50 pound mark somewhere in the early part of the fourth week of September and to lose a total of 15 pounds this month.
Even though no one is mentioning that they notice any weight loss to me, I am having to constantly roll up the waist of my pants to prevent saggy ass and I know as I hit the 50 pound mark people will start commenting on my changes.
It sounds so simple and I am doing it, but it's the fact that right now I have will power that is getting me out of bed in the morning to go to the gym before 6:00am almost every day, that is standing on the scale and taking precautions to make sure that the numbers continue to slide down and to write down what I eat almost immediately after I finish a meal so I can accurately watch my calories so I don't go over 1,600. Right now my greatest fear is that once I feel that I am in control and don't have to watch what I eat or go to the gym that the will power might slip away and I could find that the past two months were a brief sojourn to a potential thinner life.
The ultimate key is will power. I must continue to monitor my progress and realize that the rapid weight loss that I have seen over the past two months will get harder the longer I am actively trying to lose weight and when I hit plateaus to not get discouraged, but realize that it is my body adjusting to the changes in weight, and instead of a child and growth spurts I should be grateful for my shrinkage spurts.
For my third month my goal is to hit the 50 pound mark somewhere in the early part of the fourth week of September and to lose a total of 15 pounds this month.
Even though no one is mentioning that they notice any weight loss to me, I am having to constantly roll up the waist of my pants to prevent saggy ass and I know as I hit the 50 pound mark people will start commenting on my changes.
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