The effects of no sleep

This morning I have been in suburban purgatory, which is good cause with less than two hours of sleep there is no internal blocker for my mouth.
From dealing with a vomiting dog in my car, to a gas station who decided to shut down all pumps but one, which I was the lucky one to use, but then in a sad twist of fate stuck as three cars on either side blocked me in so I couldn't escape, to finally going to Target to pick up a gift certificate for a co-worker's baby shower where I saw what can never be unseen.
In line behind me was a bald woman in her mid 60's wearing a baseball cap and a short summer swim cover up. Now it's rather tacky to be wearing such a thing in public at a Target at 8:40 in the morning, it's more tacky to not be wearing anything underneath. Nothing.
Since I had a few things to do I let her go in front, she first didn't wait for me to move my cart, but decided to gyrate around it, jiggling her once size H breasts that had scummed to gravity and were free to move anywhere they wanted, and they wanted out of the cover up. I SAW NIPPLAGE! Not something that anyone would want to see, especially so early in the morning.
She saw my look of horror and said 'I'm a cancer survivor.'
Which prompted me to say 'obviously not breast cancer' Hide your shame woman!' - well the last part I did say internally so I guess I do have some kind of switch cause no one wants to get into an altercation with a pair of droopy boobs first thing on a Friday morning.
So... yeah, that's been my morning so far. Vomit and unrestricted boobage. Good times.
Aaarrrrrr pirate day!

Insomnia is back it seems

There are aspects of not sleeping that I love. I love feeling alone in the world, if just for a short bit. I love when my brain becomes almost manic with the distractions of things to do, like upload pics onto my etsy store or finish a short story and edit a chapter in my novel. I also love that I can't wake up my husband who's never known insomnia and I doubt he ever will.
However tonight sojourn into insomnia decided to try and find former lives. Never a good thing. But I did find an ex of mine on facebook who was always much more a friend than a boyfriend and who my mother took great pleasure of always calling him Aloisius.
Tonight I'm also convinced that my time on this planet is short, or that's seems to be what's causing this latest bought of insomnia.
I want to live. I want to be around for years and years and have all my friends be really sick of my existence before I go to finally sleep.
So, I guess I'm not nice. It turns out walking ministers (for lack of a better phrase) don't like being referred to as extras in a Tennessee Williams play. But my argument is, if you're going to wear a bright oversized camel colored suit with a purple tie, you're going to be mocked. I'm sorry, I can't help it.
Of course I had to be an ass and ask him to read Luke 14:26 while I pumped gas - as far as I'm concerned if you're going to try to preach to me when I'm stranded I get to have you first claim that you're a disciple and then watch your face when you read one of the more salacious verses in the 'good book'. So tomorrow I have to get gas again and half wondering if the Tennessee extra will be there again.
I really don't mind what people believe just don't try to convert me. You don't see me and a bunch of atheist roaming the streets telling you to believe nothing. However I wonder what the wardrobe would look like, especially since most people preaching feel that the only way to take them serious in their faith is by dressing like they're about to be audited.
Well that's enough rambling for me right now. Back to go remove text from my mamma story so I can sell it on etsy this weekend.

Almost autumn

I love the changes that occur this time of year. I love waking up and the house is cool, the sky is still dark at 6:30am and soon, very soon, I can start wearing sweaters and not look like an idiot.
Soon we can go on walks and not die of heat in the middle of a Saturday afternoon and the leaves will change. Ginko's and maples will drop their leaves on Huntington drive and a sense of relief as the year starts to wind down and get ready for holidays and tradition.
There are also other changes. Poo-poo and Susan are no longer here. They've moved and even though I know that there's nothing really holding me to them, it's sad to know that two people who have been a great influence on me are no longer readily available. And their home. I loved and was creeped out by it. It was old and dark at night with a slight smell of age and other lives. The living room was huge and Poo-poo and I would sit on the sofa and watch scary movies in the dark. It's so odd, Poo-poo turned 22 yesterday and is a Sr at Layfette, soon to be a man.
Other changes, a hair and makeup friend, Rebecca is also missing. I know where she lives still but she's no longer employed at the place where we'd meet each month to catch up on our lives. It's easier to find her, but this kind of change makes me wary. It's unexpected and completely out of my control, and jars me from my belief that all things that I like will remain the same forever. It's childish to think that, yet I still cling to the notion that things can't change without my nod of approval.

Another month slipped away!

Wow, close your eyes and another month of 08 is gone. Soon it will be 09 - I just can't get over it.
Esty for me is slow right now. I guess that's good. I did make the front page (see above) which shocked me. I ended up calling my mom, sister and IMing friends to look, but it was only on the front for 15 minutes becuase it SOLD. At first I was over the moon till reality hit. I stupidly didn't take into consideration that someone in Austrailia would buy it. They did. I didn't accurately have shipping outside the US done, so I ate $16.70 to get it to the other side of the planet. Lesson learned.
I was busy last month but I can't really remember busy with what. We had two parties, both with around 30 people and both went really well. Also worked a lot of overtime at my job setting up travel for 20 people. I'm almost done, but there are so many details. It's not just air and hotel, it's getting people to the hotel, seeing where meetings are going, looking into rental verses cabs etc. Glad I'm almost done, cause it's taxing.
We also got a sofa for the living room. I now have an almost functional living room, it's shocking. Since we moved in, I hated walking in and seeing first clutter then dog crates and then empty space waiting for the sofa to come in. It's a sleeper so when my best friend and her family come out they can now sleep there. It's still not ideal, but there's not a lot of room in our house. Glad it's just the two of us, cause I have no idea where I'd put a child.
Well must get back to finishing up travel and finalizing conference packets.